Nocturnal.

It's nearly 1 am, and i'm still wide awake.
I've never been able to stay up till this time before, I guess that's the effect the summer holidays has on you.

I didn't do much today. Went out to get stuff from the shop. Made some pancakes, which I'll add were the best yet. Also I made some brownies with my sister, which were yummy ;D

Tomorrow I have a driving lesson. I like driving. It makes me feel so grown up and independant :) Although I do get quite bored after 2 hours haha.

I'm cold, I'm tired, I'm going to bed.
It took me 10 whole minutes to post this little piece of shite.
Haha :D



Charlotte
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I'm on a boat.

I haven't blogged in a week... Ooops?

Anywho, this week is starting to pick up :) Been out more than I ever have done!
Today I went to the gym, and pushed myself way too far... yet again.
Damn, I hate how weak I am.
Today I have also had one of the nicest evenings.
I got to spend it with the other half.
No not my wife lolol.
I don't know what i'd do without Luke, I can honestly say he's the missing piece to my jigsaw, and makes everything so complete. (CHEEEEEESE!)
Tomorrow I'm spending the day in with my sister.
Baking brownies, watching films, getting some homework done, cleaning my room.
Lovely :)
This summer so far has been alright, but I can tell it will get loads better!

I don't really have much to say so, I guess this is a rap.


Charlotte
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Words are not enough.

Well, I can honestly say i've made an absolute cunt out of myself today.

Not only do I betray my best friend, but I lose my wife, my second home and a really good friendship. It's hard to write this blog as i'm being blinded by tears. My heart aches and my head hurts. I've hardly slept and I'm obsessively thinking about what i've done. I've never felt this bad in my life. What possessed me to do what I did I don't know. I'm just so scared.

There is so much pain and suffering going on in this world. I hate to see it with my friends, close ones or not. But yet again, my actions made everything go to shit, and it can't be fixed.

I don't know what to do. I'm forever falling down this spiral. If only I could tell you how much you mean to me, and how truely sorry I am for what i've done :(

I'm so lost and alone, someone help me. Someone tell me how I can get my best friend back. :'(

Your sincerely,
A deeply upset and heartbroken girl.





Charlotte
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4 days in 1

Well I haven't blogged in a few days so i'll have to make this one that extra bit special. To be precise, it's been 5 days... wow.
Friday 17th july
The last day of school. I cannot believe how fast this year has gone by. 1 Half of my a levels just vanished completely. I have a lot of memories from the previous year, mostly good ones. It's been quite mint overall, but I dunno if it will reflect onto next year. Who knows!

Saturday 18th July
The weekends usually bore me, but I got to spend the day out :) However I did go to work, which was a real drag :( It's always the same at that place, I need a new job :( somewhere where I can work up to my full potential and actually come away and fell i've acheived something. That would be fantastic.
On this day, I also stayed at my friend's house. It was quite a lot of fun. We stayed out till quarter to midnight in the hope of ordering a pizza when we got in.. no luck there. Was a good day :) despite I fell asleep way before her xD

Sunday 19th July
Sundays are always boring. But It's also the day I go out driving :) I love how i'm learning to drive. I love a challenge! I'm quite successful at it too :) Polished off on my turns in the road and my bay parking ;) get me. At least I didn't have school the next day!


Monday 20th July
Today was a crap day. Had a driving lesson in the morning. Fucked up a lot so I felt like a total failure xD I'm getting better though! Promise! Then I had to rush into work -.- fantastic. Working weekdays is weird. But it gets more cash rolling in ;)! This day, was also a sad day. It was a day when things started going wrong and regret crept up behind me once again. Yeah, things were going downhill after an ever increasing build up. In the words of Ronan Keting, Life is a rollercoaster.



Charlotte
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Left in the dark

So here I am, sat in the dark.
It's not the greatest of places to be.
Everything's too quiet.
Too motionless.
It freaks me out.

Have you ever had that feeling when you're sat on your own, and you suddenly have hundreds of people surrounding you, breathing down your kneck and making every inch of you feel tense and insecure? Yeah, that's what I feel like right know. I don't know why, it's unexplainable.

Recently, I've been questioning a lot of things. Mainly to do with school. Why do I worry? I want to acheive and do well, but i'm really starting to doubt myself. Well this is annoying ><>

Yours sincerely,
A really lost and confused person.



Charlotte
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Life on the road

So today I had a driving lesson. Not really a big deal but today it was.
"Now Charlotte I want you to turn right".
It was onto a main road.
Ho-lee-shit.
I have never been so nervous in my life!
I didn't really show it, I mean, at the end of the day that's what they look for. Confidence.
So out on the road, it wasn't as scary as what I thought.
But really, Me in a car at the wheel... I'm suprised my instructor even let me go on main roads!
3 lessons down, about 45 to go!

I also have work tomorrow, which isn't that fantastic, but I get more pennies :)
High fiveee!

Note to self: Go see Harry Potter and Bruno asap!

I don't really have much to say! Other than I can't wait to go to the gym next week :)
Hello toned ;)

Charlotte
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Time flies when you're having fun.

Have you ever had one of those days, where you thought it was gonna be really shit, but actually turned out okay? Well today was like that. This morning my friend Emily and I were walking around school for an hour, trying to find someone that needed help. No luck. We eventually got out of school and so spent around 4 hours at her dads playing on the wii. Fun times. I've never laughed at someone's game playing so much in all my life. The game playing was done by me. Haha. I never knew driving around a quirky race course in a little cart could be so amusing to 2 people. Anyway, after spending 4587359835 hours there, the time had come to meet our, what we called, 'doom'. We had decided to get our ears done. Seeing as though both of us had simple ear piercings, we wanted to take things a step further. I chose to just have another row put in, so I now have 2 earrings in each ear. Emily however, already has 3 in each, so she wanted her Tragus done. (For all you people that don't know what it is, it's that little cartlidgey bit that sticks out in a triangle type shape at the bottom of the ear canal). When we got there, they had no rings for her to have that done. Great, I was on my own. As I walked into the little room and sat on the chair, I was thinking to myself "Oh shit, what am I doing, but it won't be that bad". And it wasn't. It stung a little, but that's all that came from it.

Tomorrow I am going to work instead of school. Arts week is so pointless and wastes so much money. I'll be able to do something more practical instead of making stupid flags. Big thumbs up there. I wonder if it will be busy.... hmm... I hope not.

Sorry to bore you with my very uninteresting blogs. Something good will happen soon enough for me to write down here. I hope.

Charlotte
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P.S. I really want a tortoise.

Introduction

It's monday. It's half 8 in the evening and I am bored off my tits. I've never had a blog before, so I tought, hey, why not try it? Maybe there are some people out there that want to read about the uninteresting things that occur in my life. Or maybe people are just too nosey for their own good.

Today was the start of the last week of school. Year 12 is finally closing in on me. In all honesty, I have hated this year. So much has gone off I can't remember half of it. I wish that I could just start this year over again. Make a new start, do different subjects. But it's too late now. Like it always is.

Seeing as it's arts week school seems a bit of a drag. Had a year 7 class this morning, who were nothing but trouble. I don't understand what gets into some people's minds! Maybe tomorrow will be better.

So i guess you'll want to know a bit about me while i'm doing this rough 'introduction'. Well, my name is Charlotte. Not Charlie, not Lottie, not Chaz, Charlotte. I'm seventeen years old and i'm currently learning to drive. Progression is going quite fast if i may say so myself. I live at home with my mum and 2 sisters. Both are a pain in the ass but I love them to bits. I have 3 rabbits. Yes, 3. I live in a quiet little village just on the outskirts of Mansfield. Which is also the 9th worst place to live in the UK. Most of my time is taken up by school, school work and work. I want to go to university, get a cool job with a good amount of dollar and just have a good time. I'd like to live somewhere nice, somewhere far away, but I could never bring myself to do it. Uh, i'm bored of talking about myself, so i'll have to rap this up.

I'll try and update my blog every day, but i cant make promises!


Charlotte
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